Hahaha. This 'Nippon' Dog (Old English Sheepdog) appeared in my dream. So fluffy n adorable right? Ok.. This shall my future dog!! Wahahahaha..

Do you fight for something because you really want it? Or you just dont want to be defeated?

As a matter of fact, all humans hate to lose.

Dont confuse yourself by letting your pride get in the way. Cos if you don't want it, whats the point of winning? Win because you wanna prove that you're better than your opponent? Haha.. dont be silly. Its not worth your effort.

LOL. What am I talking about? Must be too much Hotshot. Hahah. I just finished watching episode 6. Super nice. Xiao zhu is freaking funny.

Its my last day!! Hahaha. Jiayou to me!!!!!!!

Empty. Silence. Home alone again.
I miss my parents. I miss home-cooked food. Sick of eating out.
Can they not leave the country so frequently? Or at least, let me tag along next time. Haha.

I dunno what to say. Life has been pretty stagnant, evolving around work n.. i guess nothing much. Feeling so lethargic. Almost everyday I dragged myself to work. I just detest waking up so early. I need my 8 - 10 hrs of sleep to keep me mentally energetic! Haha.

Tues. Last day. Am anticipating!

So sleepy. Bedtime.. Tata!

I just realized I havent been blogging for days. Haha. Lazy la. Ok I shall let the pics do the talking instead.

Group pic didnt appear =S I dunno y..

3 more working days left.. HAHA!! Cant wait cant wait!!!!!

Felt bliss. I think I've got a bunch of really fabulous friends!

Yesterday, I told jiaxiang that I wasnt sure if it was a good idea to take videos of my ah gong. Cos lets say.. if that day really comes, what am I gonna do with those videos? Watch n cry over it? But jx told me to go ahead with whatever I wanna do now.. N if anything happens, I can always find him. .. wah.. so nice. Thanks les!!

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Was having a conversation thru sms with Nichelle. Was telling her I might die of cancer, cos both my ah ma n ah gong had cancer. Then, she replied me with this really long msg..

"Actually think positively. Even if got, u have to fight n win. If cant, then try to do smth meaningful or smth that you long to do while u still can, so as to finish the mission y u come to earth. Everything happen for a reason. U prefer to die of cancer or accident? Both have pros n cons. When ur time is up, it means up. Either one will happen. Just take it easy. Do things that u like so u wont regret. Life is unpredictable. Smile all u can! Hope I did not dampen ur feeling. I feel that I m talking like a nun. Haha."

Hahaha.. when i saw this, I was laughing out loud. But at the same time, I felt touched. Its like.. you know someone really cares for you, that kinda feeling. Yup. Thank you so much, nic!!

Btw, I replied her saying that I wasnt gonna commit suicide.. so no worries. Hahahah.

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Just now, was chatting with Effie online.. asking her about aussie's accomodation n stuff. Cos as for me, taking vc n business, I have to travel to 2 diff campuses, Prahran and Lilydale. According to her, travelling to n fro from these 2 campuses, it'll take about an hour or two. Omg right. Then I asked her how long will it take to travel from her place to Lilydale.

｡ღ｡ e f f i e ｡ღ｡ says:
or wait this weekend i try go all e way to lilydale and c how long it takes ba
｡ღ｡ e f f i e ｡ღ｡ says:
lol

Very thoughtful right? Thanks in adv, Effie!

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N thanks Kelly for your tagboard msg!!

You see... I have wonderful friends!!! So blessed!!!! Hahah.. Many many many thanks to my dearest dearest dearest friends.. Will never ever forget u all. If one day I forget, permission granted to kill me.. ok? HAHAHAH..

Went to changi airport at 12 noon to meet jx. He bought us gifts from taiwan!! Thanks alot les!! Then, I followed him to pasir ris to meet his friend, sc. They knew I was going to changi hospital after that, so sc drove us to east pt to have lunch. So thoughtful right. Really appreciate it.

Life's always so unpredictable. If we knew what God's plans were.. would we have done things differently? From the start, if we knew we were to die, would we have chosen to live? If we had the choice, what would we do? Why do we have to live by God's plans? Is life on earth merely a game, or a test? Why are there so many tests? What's the result of passing them? We go to heaven? What's up there? Why is everyone striving to go there? A paradise? But why can't we go there together? Why do you have to tear us apart? I just don't understand.. God, can you tell me why?

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Received a call from my aunt. She told me ah gong was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer, can't live for long. I'm so afraid. What if I'm already in Aussie? Or should I defer my studies to August?

God, can you let me see him till the very end?

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Just came back from the hospital. Good to see that ah gong is talking so much.He kept telling us about the stuff from the past, introducing to cousins we already knew and blabbering about random stuff. At that instant, memories flashed through my mind.. I felt sad. Jie and I cried abit. Somehow I had more memories with ah gong compared to ah ma. So if anything happens, I guess I would be more affected this time. Btw, we recorded a video of ah gong just now.

Gathering on Thurs was good. 10 of us: me, jeslin, szesing, jiewei, siti, vincent, wira, yaohuang, engqi, sean. Nichelle OT till so late! So she couldnt join us in the end. But we went to her workplace to find her after our dinner at Sofra. It was already 10plus by then. Now you know why ppl dread OT n work. Cos it always ruin our plans for no good reason. Though company has better reason to keep us there.

Pics up..

I feel like tearing down that wallpaper in my room, n colour it with light brown, grey or maroon? And then, paint some graphics on it.. make it look really artsy fartsy. My bosses are moving out from adelphi n converting to home office, cos they're waiting for their new office at serangoon to be ready. N there's tons of stuff they wanna auction out. Red sofa, white cabinet n ants chair, I WANT all those. Then, I'll make my room look like part of this office. Hahah. Bet my mum wont allow. How I should I persuade her? Actually was thinking of doing all the renovation before she comes back.. Lol. She'll be darn shocked I guess. Well, better not la. I will ask her first.

11 days to go! To be exact, 8 more working days!! N I can bid goodbye to alarm clocks, morning rush, breadtalk breakfast, traffic jams, excelsiors food, adelphi :)) But I will miss dropping by ruby photo co almost daily.. not to forget, my great bosses!

Something random. Looking for these songs. If you happen to have it, send to me please. Thanks in adv! :))

• Hard to say I'm sorry - Chicago
• Happy together - Turtles
• A thousand miles - Vanessa Carlton
• Everything - Michael Bubble
• Careless whisper - Wham!
• Here and now - Luther Vandross
• It must have been love - Roxette
• When can I see you - Babyface
• Nobody wants to be lonely - Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera Thx Nic!
• Everytime we touch (slow) - Cascada
• Can't take my eyes off you - Frankie
• This I promise you - N Sync
• Don't speak - No doubt
• That's the way it is - Celine Dion
• I'll make love to you - Boys II Men Thx kelly!
• Take a bow - Madonna Thx kelly!
• Who knew - Pink
• Yesterday - Leona Lewis
• Bottle it up - Sara Barielles
• Flipside - Click 5
• Kiss from a rose - Seal
• I'd do anything for love - Meat Loaf
• If you're not the one - Daniel Beddingfield Thx Effie for this n the map too!
• That's the way love goes - Janet Jackson

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My bosses aren't coming in today!! Yeah!

Omg. I really love my holga. Cant believe my 1st outdoor photoshoot can turn out so amazing. At first I thought my photos were exposed. But luckily, it didnt. Or else I wont get to see all these effects. Ha! At least I didnt sacrifice my lunchtime for nothing.. Haha.

Exactly 2 more weeks! Hurrayy!! I cant wait! But that would mean I have to finish the website design within 2 weeks. Hahah. I've been working on it since like a month ago? Still havent finish!! Omg right. Told you I'm a procrastinator.. Lol. Ok. My boss just called. Need to do some stuff now. Tata!

Hahaha. Good to know that everybody miss everybody! Thats why we have so many gatherings just this week. Lol. Super nice. I like it.

Met up with nichelle, edward, jiaxiang, jeslin, yu zhuang, sean, engqi n songwei for dinner at wheelock Cedele just now. Great catch up with all of them. Nic and ed were late, n by the time they reached, we already finished our food. But we lied that we had been waiting for them. Haha.

My wholegrain chicken pasta's yummy. Eqi's banana choco cake's heavenly. Hahah. Jx's Walnut cake also not bad la. Apparently, I've been tasting everyone's desserts. Lol. Me and my sweet tooth. Hahah.

So when all the army guys gather together.. what can you expect? Lol. Yup, they told us about all the interesting stuff happening in camp. Some are very funny. Hahah.

Btw, meet up this coming thurs!! If you can make it, pls make it there k? The more the merrier! N I guess everyone cant wait to see one another, cos we havent been meeting up for so long!

Ok. This thurs (18 sept) 7.30 pm at bugis mrt. Cya there! :PP

Weekend was great!!! Yesterday, went kbox-ing with xueying, yaohuang, sean, songwei, ridzuan, engqi, chiyong at amk. Singing was good, but not many ppl sang. Alot of spectators though. Haha. So yup, we sang from 2pm-7pm as usual. Then, after that, some of us dined at fish n co. The stingray was ok only, that was why I couldnt finish. Haha. Around 9 plus, jeslin came. The guys bought some candles n mini fireworks.. n we (me, jeslin, songwei, yaohuang, sean) walked over to one of the HDB areas to play. Lol. Felt so out of place, cos around us were so many small kids running around, playing lanterns, fireworks etc etc. Hahah. But it was quite fun though. My first time playing these stuff with friends! Haha. And yea, we took many many pics! Will upload once I get em. Haha. Ok.. Back to work. Very sleepy now, didnt sleep well last night. Lol.

Todays a super fulfilling day! Had loads of fun!! Haha. Jie and I brought Gab to watch Wall E. Haha.. Its like finally la. Actually was supposed to watch with Jx, but he said he got some stuff to do. So anyway, after the movie, Ah be jie came to join us. And we had lunch at Ichiban Sushi. And guess what? I bumped into Kelly n Jeff twice! First at level 1, then at Ichiban. What a coincidence right? Haha.

Kbox pics up!

Then I received a reply: Sry im yuejia bro. on his behalf, he is currently in cambodia . he'd be back this sun. i doubt he can go 4 kbox

Me : Oh.. I see. Thanks for telling me.

Vincent's bro: U're welcome.. u can sing more on his behalf n claim money from him... tsk tsk..

Me: Hahah.. Ok. U r funny. Thanks. I'll keep this sms as evidence to claim money from him. Lol.

Vincent's bro: Haha.. U v clever hor..

Me: Of cos. Hahaha..

HAHAHA! Its weird that we can msg and talk as thou we're friends. Lol. But well, he said I could claim from vincent.. so why not? Lol..

Today's a tiring day. Cos I slept at 2 am this morning. Went kbox-ing with songwei, ashton, clara and another guy (didnt get his name) yesterday. It was kbox ladies night, $18++ super ex.. sang from 7pm to 12+am. Haha. Coincidentally, we bumped into yaohuang. He also went there to sing k with his army friends. So yup, as usual, we sang and fiddled with our cameras. So fun! Btw, their friend, clara can sing very very well! Its really omg kind. Haha.

This time is for REAL!

I GOT INTO SWINBURNE!!
A 3 years double degree course in communication design n business!

I've made up my mind. Gonna heck care Mr K's opinion. Hahaha!

I'm so so excited!!! Cant wait to fly there! Omg. Its freaking 3 years.. I'm so gonna love it! Lol. Nichelle says I can start packing my luggage already!! Yup, I think I should do that! Hahah!!

Hope everything will go smoothly from now on. Pray hard that my dad has enough money for me.

Btw, my lady boss told me she's gonna miss me. Haha. So glad to hear that. I'll miss her too! Cos she's sucha nice boss!! I told her I'll definitely come back n visit her! :))

Ok FINE I give up! Msn's super weird. Eh. Now I can log in already..? -.- Even msn's playing with me. Bahh...


Hey ppl.. I think you all should take a look at this: -Tokyo Pics- I think sw can take really nice pics. Make me wanna buy a slr and fly to tokyo straightaway! Hahah..

Have you ever been caught in a dilemma? Trying so hard to suppress certain screaming emotions n struggling between truth n make-beliefs? You thought about happy things, made yourself smile for a few hours. Snap back to reality, only to realize you've been deluding yourself. None are real, only living in pretence n just too afraid to face anything. All you want is to run away n vanish from this part of the world.

More gaga pics up! I dunno y.. only 6 pics were developed this time. Weird. I need to read the manual later to understand better.
Well.. these pics are less experimental compared to the previous batch. But I tried playing with the colour flash! Haha. Kinda cool .. Lol!

Pics taken at diff occasions:
* 2nd kbox session with songwei n ashton
* Botak Jones with Jie!

HAHAHAHA!! Scared right?
Super eerie pic la!! But I think it looks kinda cool though. Like some kinda horror movie poster. Lol.

I'm starting to love my holigaga n its effects!

Omg! Cool!! Hahahahahha. I've gone crazy already. Lol. Now I know what to do this weekend. Snapping n snapping awayy... wow!!

Btw, I received an email from swinburne earlier on. I thought it was that long awaited offer letter.. cos it wrote "Congratulations on receiving an offer to study at Swinburne University of Technology in Melbourne, Australia!"... But No! Its Not!! Glen told me its some kinda marketing collateral? Dah? Really strange. I have no idea la.. made me happy for nothing.

N you know what. Mr K told me not to go swinburne. Another one trying to affect my decision. What should I do what should I do what should I do?

Today's just different. Bright sunshines n refreshing warmth greeted me in the morning. I saw that cool-looking ang mo in the bus again. Hahaha. I'm on luck!
Still slightly sick. Almost finish my medicine though. Lol.
Work's piling up on my desk. Sigh. K, back to work.

Eeeyer... The medicine's no good. Still havent recover!! Argh... Now I cant sing k. Idiot la.

23 more days to go! N I'm off to Freedom!!! Hahahah!

I havent collect my photos yet. Wonder what my gaga effects look like.

Btw, I saw polariod 600 films selling at 32 bucks in peninsula plaza. Quite ex la. But what to do, that shop in compass point closed down already.
Should I buy? Ermm.. Wait till I've more cash! Hahah.

Hahahah. I'm so bored!!!!!

Suppose to have kbox session with the usual peeps today, but i have cough n flu.. dont think I can sing anyway. So why waste the $17.50 right?
N there's also class gathering.. but I give it a miss too. Cos I'm under medication, n it makes me drowsy n sleepy quite easily, so I dont wanna be hanging out for long hours. Thats y I ended up catching a movie with Jie. We watched 'Make It Happen' at yishun gv.

Its not bad. Kinda inspiring. It tells ppl not to give up pursuing their dreams. No matter how tough it is, its always worth the try. So what if you fail the first, second or even the third time? Its not the end of the world anyway, so why not just make it happen? Actually at this point of time, I really need this kinda attitude. So lets say, if swinburne didnt get back to me.. I wont be disheartened whatsoever. Hahah.

Jie was saying I was being very nostalgic today. Telling her how much I miss waiting for buses at those old bus interchange. N asking her if she'll miss walking the long passageway home if we were to move house? Haha. In the first place, we arent moving to anywhere yet! Where did the idea come from btw?

It was raining since just now. Sick n walking in the rain. How crazy! Lol.

Ok. I'm getting sleepy again. Gtg nitez!

12 am. Still too awake to sleep, cos I've been sleeping too much. Hahah. Naps were so good! It felt pretty weird to be at home on a weekday, but i enjoyed it very much. I can do whatever I like.. n I watched 3 films today! Nice!

My extension wire freaked me out just now. I saw sparks of green light flickering for like 10 seconds n I immediately turned off the main switch. Lucky thing. Or else, my curtain would have caught fire.

Ok. Gtg do something else. Or should I turn in? But I've been sleeping more than 12 hours today? I'm getting headaches already. Hahah. Ok la.. I'll see how.

Nitez ppl!

Been coughing n sneezing so much. I've been lying in bed since an hour ago. Just too lazy to leave my room. Haha. My cough n flu seems to be getting worse. Wonder what the doc gave me la. Lol.
Wahaha. I always choose the right time to fall sick! That time when I had diarrhea, my parents were in sg. Now, a few days after they came back, I fell sick again. HAHA. You see, my body never allows me to go to a doc alone, always with the company of my mum or both my parents. Hahaha. I'm so blessed. Perhaps this is just another virus for me to seek attention. Lol.
Ok. I think I should go n have my breakfast now.. then, take my medication. Haha.

I AM SICK! Down with cough n flu.But I still came to work today. Very guai1 right.Hahaha.
But if tomorrow I'm still sick, then I might take mc.

Ok. Back to work.

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Feeling kinda cold n feverish now. Ahh.. Hopefully I can hang on till the end of the day. Cos if I take 1/2 day off today, there's a pretty slim chance of disappearing the whole day tomorrow. Not that its impossible, just that it wont be very nice to take days off consecutively. But I guess today's work progress will be very slow. Errr.. So cold..despite wearing jacket on top of a long sleeve shirt.

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Just woke up from a nap. In the end, my lady boss told me to go home. So I left office at 4 plus. Gonna see a doc later. Stupid virus.

Hey niao.. lets meet up for dinner some other time instead k?

Yeap. 28 more days to freedom!! Gave my resignation letter to my lady boss earlier on. She said I could do freelance for them. Cool! Haha.

2 more days to see my holigaga effects!

4 more days to weekend!

HAHAHAH. Its all about counting down!

Btw, I miss sch. I miss being in year 1, 2 & 3! I miss my friends. I miss some lecturers! But I still don't miss projects. Haha.

When is swinburne gonna give me a reply? What if there's no reply? What if I'm rejected? Sigh... I really wanna go back to campus life!! I want more friends & even more life!!

My throat's itching. Ahh.. must be too much kbox n mooncakes. Lol.

Ok.. Knocking off now. Tata!

WAHAHAHA!! I'm so happy.. my parents are back! That chinese guy who called, made us worried sick. Lol.

Btw, our car was scratched n dented!! Wonder who's that irresponsible driver who ran off after what he/she did to our car. At least should have left a note or sth right. Its ok la.. Lol.

Just now, Jie n I went to botak jones to have dinner. N I brought my holigaga along.. When we were on our way back to our car, I still have 1 shot left.. Then I told Jie that we should finished taking it, so that I can get it developed tomorrow. So she suggested that we take the last shot with our car. But when we saw the scatches n dents, we were kinda stunned. After awhile, Jie's hp rang. It was calling from 'Home'. The first thing that crossed my mind was that my parents are back. So yup, it was papa!! Haha. So happy!! After she put down her phone, I took out my holigaga n we took a photo with the car anyway. Lol!!! N my sis was telling me that if the culprit was still there, n saw what we were doing. He/she might have thought that we were crazy.. still happily taking pictures despite of what had happened! Wahaha!!

Well, I think its a blessing in disguise. God really answers prayers! Thanks! Haha..

Now I dare to further elaborate on that eerie dream I had yesterday. I actually dreamt that the 2 bloody chopped hands belong to my mum. Thats why I was freaking worried about them the whole time! And we told Papa n mummy about the dream.. they were laughing at it la. Hahah!! Silly me. Lol

Watched Death Race yesterday. The lead actor is very cool n handsome!! The movie is super thrilling too. Quite a nice storyline.. Haha.

I had a weird scary dream. I dreamt of 2 chopped bloody hands n 3 black cats. How eerie is that?

I'm kinda worried about my parents. When are they coming back? My dad lost his phone, we cant contact him...the ppl in china said they flew back already. Where have they gone to? Somewhere else for a holiday? But why didnt they call?